I Love Progression Pics

My good friend Meagan from the good old days in Provo came by for a visit. I love this girl so it was so much fun to see her! Her and her husband Larry try to stop by whenever they are in town or when they are driving through. We have been friends for about 10 or 11 years now, wow. We have been through a lot together and have seen each other go through many phases of our lives. We have lived together, seen each other date great guy's and losers, watched each other get married, been pregnant together, etc. Thanks for visiting Meg's. Love you tons!! Enjoy the pics :) Wish I had some on my computer of the Provo college days. Love ya!

My New Ride

Kason surprised me the other day by bringing home this new vehicle :) We had previously looked at it and then decided not to buy it. We were both bummed but decided that we could get more use out of my little car. Granted we were completely squished in it. Griff's feet touched the back of the drivers seat and of course he would kick as we drove. Nolan was in the middle because that was the only spot his car seat would fit. If we put him behind the passenger seat, the seat would have to be moved way up almost to the point where that person's knees touched the dash. It was kind of a joke! Not to mention the double stroller took up the whole trunk! While my Mom was here she talked about us needing a bigger car because if we crashed "we would all die." She cracks me up, we so think alike! I was always nervous carrying my precious cargo in that tiny car! So, we are extremely happy and grateful to have this nice, new car. We all feel much safer!

2 Years Old and Almost 2 Months Old

I am having so much fun with my two little boy's. I feel like I am fully adjusted to having 2 kids now. I am much busier of course but I don't feel so overwhelmed now. I feel great! What the boy's are like at 2 years old and (almost) 2 months old:

Nolan:
-Fat as can be! Huge double chin and 3 huge thigh rolls. Love it!
-Weighed 13 pounds at 6 weeks, Griff weighed 13 pounds at 2 months!
-Wearing mostly 3-6 month clothing.
-Has huge love handles, see pic.
-Wears size 2 diapers.
-Got the nickname Bubba from the nurses when he was born. When he was in the hospital a few weeks ago the pediatric nurses also called him Bubba. TOO funny.
-Great eater but gets lazy and chokes on my milk quite often. Funny boy.
-LOVES to sleep on his tummy, yikes.
-Has gorgeous blue eye's that I hope he keeps!
-Cute, long brown hair. Curly when wet. Fingers crossed for a curly haired boy!
-Doesn't love the car or his car seat. He is fine when the car is moving, flips when we stop.
-Loves sleeping in Mommy's bed and cuddling.
-Sleeps through the night almost every night, good boy! If he does wake to nurse he goes right back to sleep. Heaven.
-Doesn't love the bouncer or swing. Likes the Lazy Boy and loves to be held.
-Cuddly as can be.
-Hates having a poopy diaper.
-Loves baths.
-Knows how to scream, unlike Griff ever did. I love it though for a change. It's cute!

Griffin:
-Tells me to put Nolan is his bouncer or swing.
-Wipes Nolan's spit up off of his face.
-Knows where all of the baby stuff is so that he can bring me stuff and help out.
-Tells Nolan to get bigger and walk, everyday. Kid can't wait to play with his brother!
-When we ask him to do something he says "No"...followed by "Just Kidding, Mom".
-He loves to say "I don't know" when we ask him questions.
-Loves to say "Griffin do it" about everything. Drives us bonkers.
-Still loves his blue blanket and is obsessed with having his fingers in the tag.
-Nolan has the same blanket now and he tries to put Nolan's fingers in the tag too.
-Working on his colors, shapes and numbers but doesn't have a ton of interest.
-Still trying with potty training. He sits on his potty and tells me to turn the water on to help him pee pee. Hilarious.
-Sings Twinkle Twinkle to Nolan.
-Uses big words like..something, remember and different. Cracks us up.
-When he really wants something he asks in a squeaky, high pitched voice.
-Knows the names of a ton of tools and the names of tractors. Like loader, bull dozer, grader, digger, forklift. I am assuming this kid will be driving tractors for a living.

I am loving being a Mommy to these cute little boy's. I am loving Nolan at this stage because he is getting so cute and really showing his personality. I am glad that the "newborn" stage is over. Don't love it. He still cuddles but it feels sweeter and more real now that he is older. I am excited to watch him grow into a cute little boy that can play with his brother. They are going to have so much fun together, I just know it. If I were younger and we had more money I would have lots and lots of kids! But one more sounds good to me. Two more sounds even better but don't tell Kason I said that.

Halloween With Two Cuties

We had a great Halloween with our 2 boy's. It is super crazy to have 2 kids now to dress up and have fun with. My Mom ("Mema Zona" as Griff says) sent Nolan a super cute pumpkin costume and Griff borrowed a frog costume from a friend. They both looked so cute! It was more fun now that Griff is older and kind of gets the concept. We had been talking about Halloween for weeks and had been practicing saying Trick or Treat! We went to Mema and Pepa's house for some adorable mummy hotdogs, tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches. Yum! We took a bunch of pictures and then went trick or treating to some of the neighbors houses. The rest of the night Griff handed out candy to the kids that came trick or treating at Rob and Lisa's house. It was so much fun! Griff also got a visit from his good buddy Alek. It was such a nice, relaxing night with family.

My Name All Over It

I found this on a friend's blog and it really spoke to me and basically screamed my name. It was taken from c jane enjoy it.

"On a walk this morning I ran into my neighbor Lucinda. I love Lucinda because she skips small talk and just serves the meat. This morning as we strolled by she asked me how I was feeling. After I responded, she went into a thoughtful expedition about the female journey.

"There is a point where a girl becomes a woman." She said. A point where a woman becomes a female warrior. Where her life is no longer a game, it is a genuine battle. Not to survive only, but to survive and be strong.

The thought swallowed me.

Because lately I've wondered about myself. Where has my youth gone? Suddenly, I don't feel the charms of my twenties, or even earlier thirties. Something inside of me has fundamentally changed when I didn't even know it. But I feel it.

I find myself wanting to fight. Fight for simplicity. Fight for truth. Fight for a daily thirty-minute nap/ quiet time. Because if I don't fight, things get complicated. They get confusing. I don't get a nap. Fear camouflages faith and things get really messy . . . unless I fight.

I think I must be transitioning over the threshold, because I still find myself embarrassed for what I lack. My jokes were funnier, I was clever-er, my ability to keep it all together was intact . . . back then. But now I am in that awkward stage where I am not secure in becoming WOMAN, although there She is, ready to hand me a sword to cut through crap.

Crappy ideas, crappy expectations, crappy use of time or money or resources, crappy things I want (really, really want) but certainly don't need, crappy behavior, crappy situations I put myself into, crappy doubts.

And here is the mashed potatoes to go with Lucinda's meat: when I hear women say "I used to be this or that" or "My brain has gone to mush because . . ." because they've had babies, or because they've devoted their lives to other people, or because they've crossed the line of girl to woman, I always think It won't happen to me. Please, don't let it happen to me. But I see now how it happens. Big dreams seem too distracting, physical energy turns into spiritual examination, gray hairs appear. You change, dang it, you just do.

But perhaps it is all in the wording:

My ability to be clever has turned itself into an ability to be wise.

I have trained my brain to assess the needs of others before my own.

My charm comes from not feeling pressure to be charming.

I prefer the simple life. The life I have now.

And I know I won't always have to fight. At some point it will be in my nature to be a secure, confidant woman without the battle cry. Today though, I like to feel the weapon in my hands, ready to unleash it upon all stupidity.

As for the threshold, I wonder. For me, it isn't pregnancy, or having a baby, or near-death experiences of loved ones (though I am sure they push). It has been a quiet, God-guided transition that I've underappreciated. Until today."

Thanks Krista and thanks Lucinda!

2nd Birthday Party

For Griff's birthday he went 4 wheeling with Mema, Pepa and Daddy and he had a BLAST. He didn't get home until his actual birthday so I had some balloons in his bedroom and gifts from family that he could open. The next day we had cake and ice cream at our house, super low key! The only friends we had come over were Jeremy and Kim because they love Griff and we love them! Lisa, Maddy and Nicole came and it was a nice little night. I wouldn't normally buy a cake but Lisa had told me about a 4 wheeler cake that she had seen at the store so I HAD to get it :) Griffin absolutely loved it!

Jumped The Gun?

I truly do not think that little Nolan has H1N1. As I sat in the hospital and listened to the nurses and my doctor I was able to put a few things together in my mind. He tested positive for Type A flu which includes the swine flu but also some other forms of the flu. Since H1N1 is so rampant they had to "assume" that is what he had and be on the safe side and admit him. I guess they admit anytime a baby that young has a fever. The nurses would come in and get all suited up to care for Nolan and sometimes a nurse would forget and come walking in without protection. Then another nurse would tell her to suit up "in case" it IS H1N1. Then I asked my doctor if Nolan's diarrhea is a symptom of swine flu and he said NO. Last week Griff had a temperature on and off for a few days and then it led into him having diarrhea for about 4 or 5 days. But the whole time he had it he seemed fine. Maybe a tad out of it and he didn't eat much. He still ran around and played though! Griff also had a clear runny nose and a light cough (he would only cough every few hours)I think the cough had to do with the draining of the runny nose into his throat. Nolan woke up with a temperature Saturday morning and that is the day we admitted him. Since then he has had ALL of the symptoms that Griff had. He is being super happy and normal but he has had diarrhea for a few days. He has NO swine flu symptoms! Now that leads me to worry because Nolan could still get the H1N1 virus if this isn't it. Obviously we are going to continue to be careful and not take him in public, etc. We will still not be getting the H1N1 vaccination though. I am going to see my Doc today so I am sure I will get more answers on this. I have a gut feeling that I am right though!

Update: Doc B is still pretty sure it is the pig flu that Nolan has. He said he has seen super mild cases and some severe one's. So, it might mean that whatever Griff had was also the swine flu? I don't know. I am so stinkin' skeptical but I always am about a lot of things. Nolan is still doing fine and is as happy as can be! Maybe we caught it early enough, maybe Pepa's blessing helped, maybe the Tamiflu...I don't know but we are happy he is okay either way.