i love them both, really i do.
but griff is giving us a run for our money.
he has taken up not listening and it has been way fun.
he bugs his brother constantly, although nolan is easily bugged.
nolan, the cutie that he is, is so darn needy and clingy.
i have felt for a long time that i did things wrong with him.
but after doing lots of reading and chatting with some seasoned mommy friends of mine, i have realized that he just has a certain personality and i am not going to be able to change him.
although some things DO need to change.
like me going and getting him at night when he wakes up bawling.
like kason fixing the heating and air in the nursery so i can move him back into there.
like locking the door and leaving him to cry by the door so i can have a teeny tiny moment to myself to either go potty, shower or get ready.
the kid needs to be near me at all times, and when he is, he is crying and pulling at me. it's totally insane.
yes, i could get up at 5 am to have some alone time but my sleep is so important to me right now. obviously.
lot's of other things have me in meltdown mode lately and i have had several of them.
it hasn't been pretty!
my life as a mom isn't perfect. i would love to get on here and blog about how peachy it is all the time but it's not.
this helped me through my last "episode".
3 comments:
That's funny - I just sent you an e-mail ranting about the same problems with my boys! I feel like I'm in "meltdown" mode a lot, too, these days. But like everything, it'll all get better with time...
I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. If it makes you feel any better- we've all been there. Every mommy out there has had her own mommy melt down (or 2 or 3). They make the good times all that much better.
You've got a lot going on and you are dealing with a TON Jules being a mommy of 2 and a 1/2 on the way. haha. Heck I go bonkers sometimes with my one- and Sade is AWESOME. I think it's normal and healthy to have a meltdown here and there- give it a good cry- scream, whatever you gotta do. Nobody is perfect- no one's life is perfect- and anyone that tries to convince you otherwise is just plain Fakin it! Love you sister.
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