some tidbits

first and foremost....

i just hired a nanny/babysitter and she starts next week

i am extremely nervous and i feel a ton of guilt over this

BUT i need to be able to workout/run errands on a more consistent basis

i fully trust who will be watching my kids and the way that i found her was meant to be (cool story. it had to have happened the way that it did for a reason)

she is in my ward and has kids that are in school all day, so it's a perfect fit!

i really am sick about leaving my kiddies and i am trying so hard to get over it. i have shed some tears over this so of course it's confusing me on whether or not this is the right thing to do. i need to learn how to be selfish though and take some (much needed) time for me. my sanity needs this. badly.

she will come three days a week for 2 hours a day.

the kiddies:

nolan is now taking gymnastics with griffin (in a younger class) because i told him that if he got potty trained i would sign him up. i really thought it would take months but he did it in one week. he never has accidents and wakes up dry every single morning, without fail. griff still pee's his pull up every single night lol. nolan is so sweet, almost TOO sweet! he shares everything, with anyone. griff throws fits throughout the day for different things that nolan has. without even thinking about it or having to be asked, he gives up his toys, sippy cups, his favorite spoon, you name it. he is SWEET as can be.

griffin is excelling in gymnastics and was asked to move up a level. yay! he does really well and listens to his coaches. he is an interesting kid! he has a really hard time saying sorry and is never truly remorseful when he hurts someone. it really bothers me and we have talked and talked about it. totally brings me back to the convo we had about throwing nolan in the road and letting him get run over :/ he also lies and its KILLING me. i cannot stand the lying! gotta fix that...grrr. funny story: he told me the other day that he wanted to go in his room, close the door and listen to crazy music really loud. yikes!!!! one on one, griffin is a lot of fun but sometimes when it comes to nolan, he's not that great. he does really well with friends and kids at the park but he's a poop when it comes to his brother (who adores him by the way). but he also really loves his brother and really does watch out for him. sometimes he is so caring and sweet with his brother. he is amazing with maggie. so super helpful with that little one. and she adores him!

maggie is awesome. i am obsessed with her. she is so cute and does so many different noises and does some silly tricks with her tongue. she laughs a lot and does a ton of jabbering. she is sweet as can be! she is definitely my little pal. she's over 18 pounds now and when i went shopping for her last week i bought her 12 month clothes. oh my! she is super long and is starting to thin out a tad. i LOVE her so so much.