Back and Forth

I go back and forth from not wanting to know the sex of this baby to REALLY wanting to know. So, I had some dreams last night and did a bunch of thinking while I was in the shower this morning and I think I want to know this time! As of right now I want to know. I am sure this could change in the weeks leading up to me actually being able to find out. So who knows! I think it would be nice to plan and prepare this time, even if it's another boy. That way I can get all of Griff's old stuff out and get it washed and ready. If it's a girl, I will need to do tons of shopping! It was so amazing not knowing with my first pregnancy. There were moments of pure torture because I really wanted to know but all in all it was so neat having no clue. Of course the labor was more fun and the actual birth was very exciting because there was so much anticipation. But with this pregnancy being so difficult and weird this time, I feel like I need something to excite me. I could possibly find out in 6 weeks or less! That is crazy to even think about! Nine months was a LONG time to not know. If I find out with this one and we end up having a third, I will leave that one a surprise! Anyway, what do you all think? Find out or leave it a surprise?