Such A Fool

I have to blog about this because it is hilarious and ridiculous. So, every 2 months or so I take a pregnancy test just to be sure that I am not preg's. Kason and I are crazy and playing the "see what happens" game. The more I think about it and say it out loud, the more crazy I think it is. It is crazy. I know.

I like to sit and worry about how I am almost thirty and how I want to enjoy my 30's and not be having babies, etc. I worry about the little problems I had with Nolan and so on. If I were younger I would just be content with the two that I have and wait 3 or so years and have another two kiddos. Kind of space it out a little, ya know? But since I am not young (ish) anymore I don't really like that game plan.

I am ready for whatever comes my way but I am pretty darn sure I am one of those girls that can't get preg's while nursing. I don't have a cycle while I nurse and with Griff it didn't come back til 3 or 4 months after I stopped. I am pretty much relying on the
LAM method.

If it fails me, it's okay.

Back to my ridiculous story....I took a pregnancy test yesterday and right away two lines popped up. I about crapped my pants but I was so excited. I was freaking out trying to figure out when I would be due, when this could have happened, how to tell Kason, etc. So I panicked and had severe anxiety for about 3 or 4 hours. I was just sitting around trying to process it all. Something made me go and grab the test instructions out of the trash to make sure what I was seeing was right. Lo and behold I was SO wrong! Hahahahaha. NOT pregnant. I have used so many different brands of tests and the last one I took, if there were 2 lines it meant pregnancy. LOL.

Even though I am a TAD bummed I am more relieved because I am not quite ready yet. Although another blessing would be welcome anytime :) I was just getting a running routine together to start soon and I was so ready and excited for it. Thank goodness I will be able to start that up and have my body to myself (sort of) for a little while longer. Phew.