Confessions....

~I bite my nails like a maniac. When I am bored or nervous. My hands and nails are hideous.
~I really can't stand to go to the movies unless it's a REALLY good movie that I really want to see. Otherwise, feels like a waste of time.
~I would let Kason do more with the kids but I like the way I do things so I would rather do it all myself. Like change diapers, feed, etc. Kason does a GREAT job though. Maybe it's a control thing?
~Getting my hair colored makes me feel better about myself instantly. Then I go back to feeling frumpy and fugly in a few day's.
~I am having the hardest time accepting turning 30. Which is coming at me way too fast.
~I am a chronic pregnancy tester. It's so darn addicting. Luckily the dollar store tests will do otherwise I would be brokey broke! Those puppies are expensive!
~Sometimes I just want my Mommy and Daddy.
~I have never suffered a real tragedy in my life. Which scares me. I have no idea how strong I really am. I hate that. In my opinion, something tragic would probably send me to the looney bin. That's no fun.
~I love riding in the car and listening to my music really loud. Gone are the day's that I am able to do that. Gone is my cute little Acura with the amp and bass tube in the trunk. When I go somewhere by myself these day's (rare), I always crank it up and sing away.
~Most of the music on my ipod is shameful. I would be embarassed if someone accidentally took a listen. Some deleting needs to happen!
~Coffee still majorly calls my name. That stuff is just heavenly. I miss it almost daily, especially when I am super tired.....which is daily. Thank you Nolan. When Kaso and I were first married I would have him brew the free coffee in the hotel just to smell it.
~I am terrified to live without my Mom. I will be dang lost when that time comes. Sad but true.
~Of course I love that Kaso has work right now. And of course I am grateful. But I am terrified of the boogey man when he's gone. And I sleep like junk. I get overwhelmed without him and the kids don't do well either. But being grateful doesn't make it any easier. It's hard on our family and I dread it.
~I am scared of the boogey man, period.
~There was a point in my life when I didn't believe in marriage. Quite frankly, it terrified me. Now that I am married I wouldn't be single again to save my life. I love my marriage. I love having a permanant buddy old pal. Plus, Kason perfectly suits me and completely gets me.
~Constantly thinking up baby names in my head.
~I do blog posts in my head when I can't sleep.